My friend, this is the end.

I just found out one of my best friends had an abortion.
Wow.Feels so weird. I love this girl more than life and suddenly i dont know her at all.
Life scares me.

BOO.
tis me.
tis addie.
LYKE OMG..i never update...big surprise?
cause noone reads this...whatevers.

addie <3
jack's mannequin
mcr
boysssss

possibley all three in two days?!?!?

haha.

so yeah.
livejournal..fucking whore. I am not liking life too much rightnow.
ive gone from wikid happy to miserable in like...a matter of hours.
points:
a.) boys are amazing. they are cute and funny,especially if they play video games and tell you how cute you are and kiss you to make you feel better *cheesey happy smile*
b.)distance sucks dick. like SERIOUSLY.i wish that a mile was equal to an inch sometimes.
c.) the number 12 looks like you = <3
seriosuly. AMAZING show. they are one of my newer favorite bands, since i have too many to count (haha.)


so yea, in conclusion, boys are amazing. distance is not. the nuber 12 is. not being able to see someone who likes you for christmas is not.

but oh well.

x

So...I saw over it w/ the goo goo dolls on friday. FUN STUFF. The 2 hour drive was well WORTH IT.I was up front and i was the ONLY ONE who was singing along.The set was amazing, dispite the crowd not being into them whatsoever. Finally my mom gave in and started singing too( but probobly cause she was delierious from the below zero cold outside the place) After their set i went and hung out with pete for a little while (while trying to get my camera to come back to life)and i got picturess and a poster (which they all signed and drew pictures on)and my mom got a hoodie (which ive been wearing to school..muahah). The goo goo dolls were surprisingly really good live, and my mom seemed to fit in with the crowd of 40 something year olds that were there to see them.so yeah, seth, ryan,and nick were all super nice guys :)
so other than that.guys are assholes.not all, but almost all of them.fuck them.ARGG.obviously, noone decided to warn me about this, but thats ok.Ill get over it and recover from my belief that i am repulsive...one day.

fucking broke my cell phone.
i hate call phones.and boys that remind me of him.

i need a nap.

Sam let me borrow her hellogoodbye cd..and it's amazing.
Also...im going to see over it on FRIDAY!! :) I'm way beyond excited...hopefully I will be up close like last time so I can take good pictures.I got a new memory card for my camera at the mall last night :D (yipee!) and I got a bunch of pictures developed to put into mah portfolio!
And hooray that Punchline is coming back! with valencia (again)! They are actually wicked good..ive found myself listening to them quite often since I saw them.
And for the record..I am such a good little over it street teamer.So far, that makes at least 6 people that I have told to listen to over it and 5 who have loved them :) (cause adi is a party pooper and I keep spamming her page with the banner lol)
Continueing the randomness...school is out and hooray for that! It weird that its almost thanksgiving, then christmas,than everything else..eek.

byee.

aghhhh
damn you biology!! DAMN you biology teacher!!
i hate school,seriously. I cannot WAIT to get out of there.
Well, I am using ALL of the money I haveto buy a fucking Goo-Goo Dolls ticket and you wanna know WHY!!? (no-im not crazy) its cause over it is opening for them.God I am derranged. Mostly because of the over it obsession (eek..in one weeks time too) and partailly because I am sending Mary-Kate and Chrissy a shirt that is absolutely the most tacky thing EVER.(laughs)so yeah..this kid i sorta know has this hoodie that says "I'll stop stabbing when you stop screaming" pretty much the best chiodos hoodie EVERRR. It's on my "christmas" list.
hah.

end.

hello.
I wish I was actually interesting enough to have something good to write in here..but no unfortunately.
Today, i went to get a shot *lucky mee* and got to stay home from school (yess).I talked to Seth from over it online *smiles*and im hanging out with them at their show in decemberrrr.
Other than that, nothing else exciting. I have an unbeleiveable amount of pictures to finish :P and homework...ewww.
oh and me and rose are making our lists of what to get people for that winter holiday known as "christmas", so that we can go shopping either this weekend or next to beat the hordes of overanxious shoppers.
so if you want a present, tell me and perhaps ill get you a knockoff of whatever it is.

theend.

whoa. fun week.
monday was the punchline/blg/over it/valenica (and o yea..spitalfield) show.
so yea, I knew a little about over it and i was wayy beyond excited to see them. and now..theyre pretty much my new favorite band. Peter was nice and i got a picture with him. Punchline was good, I loved how steve was so short and goat like looking in person :) Valencia...whoa.They were actually really good. I'm bying some of their songs online, when i get some money, cause they were nice guys.

oh em gee
ive been sucked back in
bands who sound like saves the day and emo-ness are taking overe my life once again.
not that i really mind :)

so yeah, friday night=amazing.
I feel so busy for a change :)
sam and I ended up getting forrest to sign our tickets :D cause she ran up to the bus and knock and was like " I LOVE FORREST! can he sign my ticket?" so he did! we had so much fun..it was insane!
and now im officially in love with dave melillo <3
so yeah...not much to tell..perhaps later.
other than im supposed to be grounded...hahah.
maybe punchline/blg on monday?

ta ta.

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
sonny moore, the greatest singer EVER could not sing on thursday and from first to last was kicked off tour.
FUCK ATREYU!!! and i know EVERYONE is sick of people saying that...but seriously. FUCK THEM,FUCK THEIR MUSIC, FUCK THEIR MANAGERS, FUCK ATREYU!!!!!!!! I HATE THEM!!! they ruined the ONE THING i was happy about.i got good grades and stayed up until 1 am on some nights to finish homework so that I COULD GO TO THIS FUCKING SHOW.im so sad.

poor sonny.
i cried when i got home to tell you the truth.
on the bright side:
me and katie met chiodos (twice):D and they were such nice guys!
I got a shirt and a poster and the floor was SO CRAZY!! someone landed ontop of me!BUT IT WAS SO FUN!! thanks to that show, i now have like, 5 new friends.
then last night i went to my friend julie's birthday party...i was the oldest one there..HAHA.no, shes an awesome kid though.all her friends were so nice and we went to the beach and slid down a fucking sea wall (ass still hurts..ouchies.) so yeah, thats about 4 new friends from that. this is a good weekend. also..SAW III on sunday (possibly today?) with shayxshay cause we need to cope from the loss of someseriousbitchwhose wrecking our lives.

ohhh so COMMENT THE PIC OF ME AND CRAIG on my myspace!!!
www.myspace.com/murderforrevengex

and ill love you even more:)

forgive this for being overly happy..its not me.its something else.
im reading Riding in cars with boys, which rose let me borrow,( i let her borrow invisible mosters) and it is SO GOOD.I wouldve read the whole thing by now but i have science fair and the stupid research paper (im doing global warming :P so i havent had time. ALSO, im getting REALLY hyper lately. I went to this pizza place last night and saw this guy who looked EXACTLY like tom from ciwwaf (only he was taller) and i was like WHOA (out loud) and shaking my foot all day..perhaps im too exicted for this THURSDAY which is the fftl/chiodos/everytime i die show (yaaaayyy).
oh, good stuff. I finished my first painting, and my aunt was talking about it for LITERALLY and hour. I know im ok, but not AMAZING. So now, my art teacher is letting me do a drawing and i decided to draw ritsuka from loveless :D and i made a friend in art who likes anime too.
gahhh paul the bass guy called and wants me to take lessons but i cant afford them :( I miss bass lessons and patrick stone and really hott guy that me and catherine are in love with...sadness.

5 days..like whoa.

not a lot to say.
me and adi have pretty much started an eduardo and stan cult..hahh.I got to skip half of school on monday..which is always good. I fixed my ipod, FINALLY.I have 175-ish songs on it so far,and that wasnt even half of my cd's!(ipod=love.)
7 days till fftl!!! :)
oh, and the free trail of aol at my house ends on the 20th :( so unless my mom agrees to pay for it all year, i wont be online quite as much:( WAAAHHH! (but mommy!!I NEED the computer!!)
YESSS sam can come to hellogoodbye!!so that makes, what, 6 or 7 people i know who are going?! Is hellogoodbye REALLY that popular?!?! Cause the last time I saw them, people were like..uuhh..who are they? speaking of conceerts, my mommy wants to take me to see BEN FOLDS and then in Feb. Josh ritter, who my mom is like, IN LOVE with.He's good..its my cd, NOT hers(haha)so that makes it..a concert per week. I could get used to this :)
nothing else to say other tna 7th graders pretty much suck for sending me and adi to the office for "threatening" them because one of them stole something off our lockers.
whatever.

7 days!!!!

oh.
this.
is.
just.
fucking great.
i went to southie today and saw some gallery shit. people went NUTS when i mentioned i wanted to go to art school.
last night=fun shit!!! me and emt went to johnny cupcakes and waited in line while watching INSANELY hot emo boy...GOD HE WAS SEXY!!!
and i got a shirt and a pillowcase+ caught some candy johnny threw and got a shweet pic of him :) (cutie) we took tons of pics in line with charlie..ahaha.the little brother loves emt hee hee. killer paper due monday..so not even remotely ready.
i wrote all over rhinoplasty surgery pamphlets at the doctors last thursday. ex.: your own nose is beautiful, dont change the face you were born with. HAH!fuck them..noone neads it.
speaking of surgery, i finished INVISIBLE MONSTERS. suchhh a good book.read it.
oh MY FUCKING GOSH!!!!
BEN FOLDS IS COMING BACK!!!!
AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
*excuse me while i go flip out*

love you.
hate them.

AHA! so me and my workaholic-ness helped my aunt clean for 5 hours to get the rest of the money for my NEW IPOD(fuck yea) i got a 2 gig, though it's not the one I wanted, it will have to do until i get a real job.its gray and tiny and is not working on the fast computer, so i have to download it onto the crappy one at home, which is taking FOREVERRRRRR!
also, first art project=finis. HA!! the can came out awful, but hey, i'm lucky to even be taking art.also, my thursday night class (which is new for me, it's like an advanced painting /drawingfor teens thingie i diddnt know my teacher had in her basement)is so amazing. Noone talks to me, but its still just so awesome to be with people who, even if they dont talk to you, love art just as much as you do.
So, me and rose went to the garment district on sunday..so fun! i got these bulky heavy boots and a jacket for 9.50! therefore, i am now anti hot topic, other than band t shirts, which i buy only a few of since they only had one fftl one, and i bought the last one :) we went to the middle east restauraunt and i got a veggie burger that was made out of mush...and drunk guys from some shitty band next door followed us to an ice cream place..yea. we always have fun in cambridge :)
so while im babbling, i hopefully want to go see heavens (because they are so awesome) next month, and on friday, me and rose and (hopefully) adi are going to *johnny cupcakes* to buy wicked cool t shirts and show them off because they are so damn expensive.
OH AND I GOT MY 12 GAUGES!!! :)
(so beyond happy, though noone will know, because noone reads lengthy entries..EVER.)

ok so tata.

I hate school.







noone cares.






noone reads this stupid fucking liejournal..i'll just stop posting.

fuck, i'm letting it get to me.
you think your life is so fucking great one moment, the next your ready to kill yourself.
you're on the cliff, and it's too late to turn around.

perhaps this is why everyonefuckinghatesme.
i am such a fucking maniac to think lif could ever be good again.TURNS OUT...I AM A BITCH.A LOSER.IDIOT.STUPID.
you think i've changed, sorry, but you're wrong.


ifuckinghateeveryone.


ihatethepersonivebecome
its you in my skin.

we drew a horse in art.
the only pure thing in this world,and it smells like shit.
ironic isnt it?

so yea...
fuck school.
i hate it.
i wanna go to north with emt..i bet it's better there.at least by a tiny bit.
but on the bright side *concert* today!!
and i was gonna have art, but i gotta go over to my aunts and help her buy a new fridge online..haha.
also, I found a new band, called Heavens.they are SO GOOD.
they sound kinda like interpol, but with a little alkaline trio in there. Went to the mall with emt last night :)
and i bought the last fftl ribcage shirt..HA!! and of course i got rice and stole fries cause they are AMAZING.
My ipod is dead.
R.I.P. little ipod!!!!!!
they were like, ' there's nothing more we can do' like in those hospital dramas where someone really critical to the plot DIES.
so, i guess i'll get over it and buy a new one, hopefully a nano (HOPEFULYYYYYYY). ok, so i'll probobly have more to say later.
bye!

mr kesinskas (latin teacher/midday advisor) said: "are you reading your book backwards adelle?!"
"why yes, i am"
" is it MADE that way?"
"yeah"
"well that's NOVEL.AHAHAHAHA, NOVEL, like a book with a lot of pages, thats a story...oh goodddd....im gonna have to take a break after this laughing!"ha.this is what loveless does to gay guys.(other than..wel..other things.)

i bought define the great line..and i LOVE IT!also...the world is being taken over by bitches.watch out or you may be next.

i drew a picutre of dead flowers outside my house.my mom and brother think it sucks.but..on the bright side...i got my fftl tickts.
hoo-rayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh and im trying new sources of protien.
1.veggie burger made with tofu...EHHHH!!! so nasty.
2.soy hot dog-fuckers!!! im gonna sue these people..im still tasting it nearly 2 days later.
3.gardenburger (soy)-yumm!!! i like!

oh.what else.so...new people are awesome.
half the class is convinced i am either a goth or a satan worshipping emoboy loving maniac..which i suppose isnt so bad.
also, i have FINALLY found someone who understands that travis richter is the unquestioned hottest member of fftl (other than sonny, which is so blatently obvious) and we have freak out sessions during study while joelle stares at us like we're crazy...which we totally are.



but despite all that, i find myself wishing i was dead on a daily basis.it sucks.


shit.
october16.im afraid.

i am starting to wish alot of things were different. but i know the truth, none of them can be fixed, and its hopeless to wish that i had been born a different person.
all i can say is, the person i wish i was most definately wouldnt be caught dead praying that she could go to a concert. she wouldnt be caught dead dancing at a stupid dance school in fucking rockland where shes the oldest one in the LAST ROW and the only one who isnt new, because all of her friends and everyone else got moved up but her.
whatever.
im alone and always will be.

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!









Paul Dano is my hero.
<3

so i watched as much as i possibly could of brokeback mountian...uh,.,,thats all i will say about that for now..hehheh..no.
so i had me birthday party last night, fun stuff. we watched saved! and attemped to watch fight club but my mom was there and was like 'turn it off'.grr..but whatever.
SHES THE NICEST LADY IN THE WORLD TODAY cause she said i can go to from first to last!!!!!!!!! ALL THAT FUCKING WORRYING FOR NOTHING!!!! and im so totally telling my aunt to conving emt's mom to let her go too..cause what would a fftl show be WITHOUT the person who introduced me to them!?!?!? WHAT i ask you?!so..what else..o yeah..i made a new friend at school, her name is adi..(a mere coincidence..rose thought it was funny)she likes from first to last, and tai, and pretty mcuh all the stuff i like, except im not as crazy about saosin as she is...i just think theyre not really unique sounding. so now i guess i have at least 2 people to talk to in my grade, now that michelle's not talking to me..but whatever.im not gonna let shitlike that wreck MY BIRTHDAY.(2morro, but i ,might not update then so this is just in case)whoot.14.yyyaaaaah.even thought id rather b turning AT LEAST 15, which sam wrote on ym card, which i thought was funny since a lot of people think im onder.(i dunno why)ok so byeeeee!

i bought the garden state soundtrack!! it is so amazing and caring is creepy by the shins and dont panic by coldplay are the 2most amazing songs you will ever hear and i now own them on a compact disc!!! (hell ya bitch!)

noone reads these stupid things.not even people who pretend to care.

addie/adelle/julio/adellie
girl(hope you knew by now).13 years,11 months, 14 days-birthday in 3 days.shortish/tallish.acne.likes to eat emo cookies and is fatish.music-y.wears band t shirts.wears socks with curious george on them.black nail polish.draw-y.likes concerts and goes to more than is good for her (but who cares cause theyre so much fun)
likes person who she knows can never possibly like her back.likes mini oreos and watching saw with rose and carrie while a dog tries to get up on the couch.sonny moore obsess-er.dances but hates it, but needs exersise.
paints and loves the smell of turpentine but hates how it makes her almost pass out(hehe).new blue camera phone she will wave in your face when you see her even if youve already seen it.finally, she might change, even though she cant control it.please dont hate her for it, she needs to.